10:03 a.m.

On a rare and relaxed Thursday morning, here's one son:

Here are the other two. These two were just fighting over the green thing in Jadon's hand. Judah just turned around to give me a cheese. :)

5 years ago

After dropping off Jackie at a friend's house earlier tonight, Josiah initiated a conversation during the drive home and brought back some memories.

J: When did Gung-Gung die?

M: (surprised) Um...today! It was today, June 22, 2006. He died 5 years ago. (I hadn't remembered that this was the anniversary of my Daddy's death until Josiah brought it up!)

J: 5 years ago?

M: Yep.

J: Will we see Gung-Gung in heaven?

M: Yes, we will.

J: Yay!

Wow, the simple joy of a child looking forward to heaven already. I wish I could have that kind of reaction every day! Yay, I get to see my Daddy in heaven someday! Or YAY, I finally get to see Jesus in the flesh! Instead, I am preoccupied with my daily duties instead of yearning for the Lord.

Maybe Josiah thought of my dad because he saw a photo on my screen saver this morning. It was of my dad playing with Josiah on the floor in his house. Josiah was around 12-months old. He asked why Gung-Gung didn't have any hair. I explained that the poison killed it and made it fall out. The poison was also killing the sickness that he had.

I miss my Daddy. Crying for him now... I'm happy for the time he had with Josiah, up to 14 months of age. I'm heartbroken that he never got to meet Jadon, Judah, and Jackie. He would have loved them all, spoiling them with his time and with toys. He was so giving, so quiet, and so loving. Now he gets to rejoice in heaven with the Lord.

It was so hard at the end of his life. He couldn't stay awake for very long due to his meds and body shutting down. He was never one to voice his thoughts very much so he didn't give very many last words. He knew he was dying, but never complained. On June 4, just weeks away from death, he finally received Jesus! Praise God! We were all praying for his salvation and God granted it. I wish I would have asked more questions so I could hear more last words from him.

Josiah's simple request

I was walking around picking up things around the house before I returned to the kitchen to find this:

I had to chuckle at how neatly everything was set up! This was Josiah's silent request for his lunch. He had it all set up for me and all I had to do was cook and assemble it. It's his favorite meal for lunch, a "dahn-cheese burrito." I guess he took a break from his schoolwork and ransacked the fridge for these items.